inside and out

i'm bloating inside and out. 1)after struggling and burning my team's midnights' oil, finally we had our not-so-academic-paperwork submitted to my bro this afternoon, (referring to kaut-makan-tak-habis-and-exhaustive-project)... oh god, i so love this academic world, let me do my part.. stay close to me.. i'm praying hard for this.. 2)replaced h.o.d's 2 hrs lecture yesterday.. it's a course which requires you to put on your thinking cap, nobody ever did that ystrday,.. *sigh*.. thinking of it, i was 'them' 10 years back.. didnt put effort to think, let others think & decide for you.. and you are happy with the decision, no question asked.. hahaha.. so sad kan? when god grants you the capability, tapi tak guna. but true, some people are just so afraid to think let more to critisize. i believe when you are being critical, you are not insulting or condemning a situation/ people around you. you are just equally reasoning, giving yourself more options and opportunities in your life. am i right? having to accept other people's opinion gives you no freedom. after all, life is short. speak out loud, inside and out.